Memory?

I often think about it much, sometimes for very long hours....."If i leave, will you come searching for me? Or would the memories be enought for you?"I wanted to ask you this question alot of times before vut i decided i shouldn't I can't bare the answer i suppose or i am just afraid of what you might say...But why should i ask when your actions say it all...If i leave, you won't even care....it won't matter at all, you would just live your life as if nothong has changed, as if nothing is missing...and that's ok i guess, good for u...But then i think of how stupid i am, how naïve...because even if you are here, i still miss you....the second you leave, i just want you back....and if you leave, my whole life will be turned apside down...So i guess the only option i have is TO BE THE ONE WHO LEAVES... to spare myself some dignity, i should just go away......